I sometimes wonder if I am completely insane. I mean, it's like... I love drama. My dad loves drama too, maybe it's a Virgo thing. I don't know, I'm a complete hypercondriac too. I know I spelt that wrong. Recently I've been feeling sick non-stop. And you know what ridiculous idea jumps into my mind? That I'm pregnant. I've been here before, thinking I'm having a baby when I've never even had sex before. It's completely silly. But recently I have been having sex and so the stupid thought pops into my mind and I know it isn't possible as I've ALWAYS used protection but I don't know... I get this idea in my mind and it's as though I WANT to be pregnant. I know I was disappointed the first time I found out I wasn't. I mean, that's not normal is it? I'm seventeen for God's sake!! Why would I want to be pregnant? I don't know what it is, I'm just a typical girl... I want to get married and have kids and be a great mum and wife. But I'm 17! I shouldn't be thinking about this!
The feeling sick thing is really starting to do my head in though. I keep feeling weak and tired all the time too, it's driving me mad. I feel sick and eating things makes me feel better but afterwards I just feel sicker. It isn't nice.
Well, what a nice first blog!! In other news, I'm pretty happy at the minute despite feeling sick and feeling a little bit discontent about my hair. I've got a boyfriend who is lovely (despite the fact I met his ex the other day - not worth going into) and everything is going pretty well other than this eating/feeling sick thing. Pfft. Who knows eh?
